October 18, 2007

WHY??

Why is it that i have to get my feelings hurt loving is so easy you would think yet it is so hard its hard to be faithful and even harder not to love anyone else i love him so much i always will for without him there is not my angel but god there are others that i love what should i do can i love someone and be in love with more than one???? what would you do? when the feelings for one meets comfortablities ideas and love but the other breads passion spontinaity and carelessness do i stay safe do i take a chance oh   but to love too is moraly wrong not to mention selfish right lost for words lost in love
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June 28, 2006

for gabriel

whispered in the wind echoed through my soul never giving up never letting go yearning now to hold you feeling inside you grow cant wait now just to see you and watch you grow old all lifes asperations all my hopes and dreams resting in your eyes my life is yours it seems soon you will be here and show your happy face nothing in the whole wide world can ever take your place cant wait just to see you take your first breath as if i have nothing left but sitting here and waiting for you cant wait to see what you will do cant wait to hear you cry at night cant wait to hold you oh so tight cant wait to kiss your soft sweet cheak cant waint untill the day we meet so this i vow and mean so true that no matter what i will always love you

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May 04, 2006

101'

so you say that you hot like 101 once shes hit the top you've only just begun you could melt any candy make any body sweat if you see sometyhing you want that something you will get so you say that your hot 101 body temp up higher lips on fire so you say that your real the best end of the deal and you really like a good meal well im here to tell you im 102 anything you can do i can out do you may be sexy a real romeo but i know something sexy that you really need to know your 101 im 102 and yeah you might be sexy but what can you really do so you can melt any candy just by touching the seal you say  i have to see it to know that its real so you say that your hot 101 well sexy thang you dont know what you have begun you say that your hot lets see what you can do lets see if you can warm up to 102
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Sun

wide awake with the morning sun my heart still beating i have not yet won the ultimate trophey still at hand i want you to be my man you'd be un able to get out of bed the things i would do would spin your head i want you so bad and i know you can tell with you im in heaven without im in hell i want you to hold me and never let go i want to be with you these feelings i'll show i could make all of your dreams come true i would be the best i could be for you my heart it keeps pounding my pulse it will rise everytime i look in your eyes i want to hold you and make love to you i could make all of your wishes come true
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Steal

my tears roll down like wil fire my love for you will neve tire i wish i could change our senario the beauty of your face is camieo the miles between you and i to hold you again for that i would die nothing can stop these tears that i cry with my head in my hand and a tear down my cheak without you im nothing and with im complete did i tell you i loved you and how much i cried did i tell you i want you forever by my side did i tell you i need you did you hear me say how much i want you to hold me today my love for you is strong like steal can not be broken the best end of the deal i'll hold you tight through every mile i'll make you laugh i'll make you smile the oceans that keep us the bars and the chains can not stop the love the have no way you are my one my all my life i'll love you forever with all of my might
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April 26, 2006

Gabriel

hello to eveyone out there this is an anouncement i am having a baby~~

he is due on the forth of july and his name will be Gabriel Kole Eugene Dorch. this is a big shock beacause i was under the impression that i would not be able to have children. i am so excited and can wait to share pictures with everyone!!!!

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July 06, 2005

goodbye to you

Goodbye To You

scattered illusions twisted delusions
shadows in the night thoughts of you come
crashing through time after time i hear your
thoughts i know your pain i feel you when
you cry yet all i can do is be subdued and
slowly watch you die the pain inside will
surley hide and yet it holds on tight
as i say goodbye and turn from you and
say goodbye to light

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death

A little change from the ordinary not a poem but a statement

By Courtney Hayes
WJHG-TV

Bay County sheriff's officials say the discovery of a human head late Monday afternoon in the shallow waters of St. Andrews Bay could be the missing link in the Lennia Hing murder case. The 18-year-old's headless body was found in a wooded area off of big daddy drive on panama city beach three months ago. Lennia's husband, 19-year-old Blake Collier, was arrested and charged with her murder, but even with Lennia's accused killer behind bars, her family remained uneasy of what they knew would come next.

"We knew that because only part of her body was found we would some day get a call," says Barry Beaver, Lennia's stepfather.

They finally got that call late Monday afternoon from bay county sheriff's officials who told them a nearby resident may have found the missing link in Lennia's murder case. The man was walking his dog along the St. Andrews bayfront when he found a woman's head in about two feet of water.

"It kind of gives us closure, but also we're reliving it all over again," says Beaver.

The medical examiner's office will now determine if the head is Lennia Hing's, and while one chapter could soon be closed in this tragic case, Lennia's family says the worse is still yet to come.

"The bad part now is sometime down the line we're going to have to tell her daughter, Emma, about what happened to her mother," says Beaver.

An account has been set up for Lennia's daughter, Emma Collier, at all Trustmark Banks.

a dear friend someone i went to school with someone that was beautiful and intelegent wrapped in the deciving arms of drugs and abuse she was a bright sould that dimmed way before her time i look into her daughters eyes and still see her today everyday i think about her and the tragedy but she will never be forgotten because she will always have me

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Spiders

the spiders dance the walls instead the voices speak inside my head their telling me what i should do do you hear my voices to with no escape they chat away in and out of everyday the faces push within the walls the banchie screams the devil calls they pull me in they peirce the skin they want me to join their life of sin they tear the ropes that bind me here and fill my soul will the darkest fears they laugh at me as they see me cry they dance and dance as i start to die what am i supposed to do can you hear these voices to if you were to take them away would it still remain the same could i live out each day would i be lonley would the skys be gray i just dont know what i should do can you hear my voices to? 

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Forget

forget his touch

forget his face

forget his words

and warm embrace

forget him when he said

"I love you"

when he kissed and

when he hugged you

forget his words

"I'll leave you never"

rememeber now he's

gone forever

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